something about Elliott Smith or not

I can still remember the felling when the music flows on the train when the sun shines into the train in the movie " Good Will Hunting " when I was still a senior high school student . Now Elliott Smith was dead and somthing changed . I am still alive . I have to set a direction and go . This afternoon I stood by the Tou-Chen river seeing the water flowed till the sun went down and the motors on the bridge passing . I felt funny when I saw the motors passing by cause they looked so tiny and passed by quickly . The train passed by when I stood by the river or in the river . I looked back where the river comes and I saw the mountain of several layers . I touched the water and smelled . The water looked not dirty but I wondered if I can jump into the water and swim no mater now it's winter . I couldn't hear the song that the river sang .